03:18 & 18.04.04
Why?
why am i so sad?
why do i feel utterly and completely alone in this world?
why do i feel that maybe i didn't make the right decisions?
why can't i love matthew the way he loves me?
why am i scared of being committed to matthew?
why do i always fall for people's games?
why do i always become interested in the players and the sluts?
why do i crave attention from guys?
why doesn't anyone ever call ME?
why do i feel i need a boyfriend so bad?
why can't i have someone to come home to?
why is it so hard being gay?
why do i feel like i don't belong in this world?
why do i feel no one enjoys my company?
why do i want to be loved so bad?
why am i scared of falling in love?
why do i have such a hard time trusting someone when they are my boyfriend?
why do people cheat?
why did i cheat?
why do i say things i don't mean?
why can't i ever believe matthew when he tells me he loves me?
why can't i be in california right now with the one boy i love?
why am i scared i'm not going to be good enough for matthew?
why do i feel he deserves someone better than me?
why am i so insecure?
why couldn't i have been blessed with a better life?
why can't i ever make up my mind?
why do i sacrifice so much to make other people happy?
why me?
forget the past <----> there is no future
