02:31 & 21.01.04
Welcome to my head
Here are some poems I wrote while I was on post tonight. I hope you enjoy them!
When I Think of You
It's the time of year
When spring changes into summer
It's not too cold
It's not too hot
That's what I think of
When I think of you
That confusing feeling
That stings you in the gut
That panicky impatience
A thousand moths dancing in your stomach
That's what I feel
When I think of you
Losing you for good
Pushing you away
Not feeling your body next to mine
Not holding you in my arms
Not being completely happy
That's what I fear
When I think of you
A lasting relationship
A pure and honest love
A place in your heart
A whispered "I love you"
A smile that brightens my every day
That's what I wish for
When I think of you
Me
I suppress my tears
I live life in pain
I drown my sorrows
I break down when no one's looking
I'm terrified of life
I'm easily convinced by others
I'm a fool for love
And a glutton for punishment
I put things off everyday
I sacrifice my own happiness
I keep making the same mistakes
I fall so easily
And get dropped even harder
I'm green with envy
I'm a hopeless romantic
I give in to temptation
I like to escape reality
I'm always stuck in the middle
I've been used relentlessly
And I always come back for more
I'm all alone
I'm all alone
I'm all alone
This is me
A Second Chance
The sun is shining in my face
I'm taking life for granted
I'm wanting you right by my side
But you seem disenchanted
I know that you are still with me
In ways I can't remember
Do you even still feel the same?
Or is your love now limber?
I wish that I could hold you now
But it seems I've lost that chance
Will you at least hear me out
And give in to my romance
I'm asking for forgiveness
I am down on one knee
Please include me in your happy life
And see what was meant to be
I hope I haven't lost your love
Maybe it was just misplaced
I know what I must do right now
And I will give you some more space
I'm stepping back and standing still
Waiting for that wonderful day
The day that you return to me
And love me in a special way
We, The People
Sometimes I hide behind my mask
I take it off for only them
Sometimes I'm not myself
I shut down my senses and emotion
I become a cold heartless shell
I become what you are
I become a jury of my peers
My secret is safe
You decided it should be a secret
Choices are to be made
Growth must be spread
I am being judged
I am not normal like you
You are so elegant
You are so perfect
You are a hypocrite
You can't see what's right in front of you
You can't see the truth
There are others like me
Waiting to be heard
Waiting to be held
Waiting in vain
I won't be waiting for long
I despise being you
My life was made for me
Not to be controlled by you
One day you will wake up
And things will be different
forget the past <----> there is no future
