14:59 & 22.02.04
How stupid could I be?
WOW...I bought the new Sarah McLachlan CD a few weeks ago and pretty much every song is a life story waiting to be told about me! Especially the very first single, "Fallen." I knew that I related to the chorus, but I never sat down and actually read the lyrics completely. It's really freaky because it's exactly what I'm going through right now. Let's take a look shall we?
Heaven Bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
But the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
We all begin out with good intent
When love is raw and young
We believe that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our back the burdens time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
Heaven bend to take my hand
I've nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to these I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
That it's one wrong step one slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem away to be revealed
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so...
I DID mess up and I have sunk so low because I can't take any of this back. This song is freaky because it describes my life right now. My friends are too embarassed to hang out with me right now and I have lost some friends because of the mistakes I have been making here lately. I can't believe I have been so stupid and immature. I wish I could rewind my life like a movie and just change things. I wish I could be happy with someone right now and be able to forget the past and move on from it instead of always wanting to cause that person pain and suffering. I wish I didn't get all angry when I think of him and I wish my friends would actually be there for me instead of constantly doing other things and never calling me. I'm alone...I hate it...did I really deserve this?? Maybe Satanskid83 was right...it's my own damn fault I'm in this mess. It hurts even more to know I can't put the blame on anyone else.
forget the past <----> there is no future